I’ve had this terrible sinus headache all week.  My head feels like it’s in a vice, my teeth hurt from the pressure, and I get dizzy.  This morning when I woke up, I was super dizzy.  I tried to suck it up and get ready for work, but after my shower I still felt awful.  Since I was feeling a little wobbly, I called in.

Every time I call in, I swear I have a minor panic attack.  I feel so guilty, and I don’t know why.  I have days that I can take off if I don’t feel well, but I still feel bad when I do that.  I think part of the reason it’s so hard is because our office is so small.  And I’m about to be gone for the holidays, even though the office will be closed.

At McHell, I would call in at the drop of a hat because I hated being there so much.  But I like my job now, and don’t want to annoy my boss by taking time off right before the holidays.  But at the same time, what’s the point in me being there, preforming at a half capacity?  Or contaminating everyone else?  I don’t have a lot of work to do anyway, just some reports, and I can do them from home.

Do you guys go through this inner battle when you have to call in?  I always feel like I’m not sick enough, so I need to sound sicker when I call in.  Or add onto the symptoms.  Like today, I added that I had a slight temperature because I felt like a bad sinus headache just wasn’t enough.  I hate that we have to feel guilty when we want to stay home because we don’t feel well.  Stupid culture of work being so important!

nhjnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn – <——– Zoey was trying to help me write this post.  Then she stepped on the power button and turned off my computer.  She has a weird fascination with computers.